Tuesday, November 06, 2007
oh my god. i'm breaking down. that sms really caused my heart to sink down to the bottom. can you imagine? with high hopes, you anticipate to meet someone who you have never seen for more than 1month. the previous day's midnight, he said he could not make it due to work. i was torn apart. yes, i cried myself to sleep. my tears could flood the world. it was so heartbreaking. am i being selfish here? or i should be more understanding towards him? but am i not doing enough for him? it is going to be 5months le. and i am not feeling much happier. i also don't know how i tahan through these 2days. with GOM and TTP tests somemore. in a confused state. in a mess. i really wish i can don't care about it too much. my heart had just committed suicide that day, but failed to die. it is in a coma now..
